11/03/06

the day has come

after months of planning and thinking and staying up late on the phone calling all friends and having conferences over the ym...the day has finally came

the excitement stops there...

see while i was on the bus on the day before..i've been receiving messages that the people i've contacted were not able to attend the said affair..that made me ponder and ponder some more while the bus was on the expressway...somehow it left my head by the time i arrived at manila at 1300 hrs...there killed my time again satisfying my need to finish the final destination series (i've watched 1,2 and 3 already in one sitting)...night came when i started to phone my friends...hours came and the idea returned to my head once more...more and more people are telling me that they are not able to go..and all that..it was 2300hrs when i realized there are only 5 people going..1/4 of the expected..great..as the line from incubus song drive says "whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there" would seem to fit the mood

11/03/06 1200 hrs

as expected only the 4 of us attended and there you go...we had our affair in shangri-la plaza..(the mall next to edsa shangri-la hotel)...we had lunch,shopping(window i guess)...movies and arcade..it was fun while it lasted though...but a strange a wave of melancholy hit me when the four of us went to starbucks at 1800 hrs...after moths of thinking of the event...everything happened so fast..on my way home i can't help but to give in to the peculiar melancholy i have felt back then...made me play the saddest of my sad songs in my pod..i don't know why....looks i'm gonna miss the whole good times there and worse my summer feeling came back to life which i'm trying to mentally truncate...how could life be so unfair and all...after that i sang and cried myself to sleep...still hazed on the melancholy i felt

i wish there was some way to fight such feeling....